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My name is Evelyn Boswell, I am the Director of Tomorrow's Woman Inc. and a
Certified 12-step Consultant; I am also a recovering addict.
After coming off of another relapse yet again, I knew that if I did not get some real help, the next
time I would die. After NA and AA did what they were supposed to do for me, which
was to cause me lose the desire to use, I knew that I had more work to do because
I still had the same feelings inside. I still did not feel good about me. I was
determined to get to the bottom of my issues and I was willing to do whatever I
had to do, to get better and break the vicious cycle I was trapped in.
I found out with the help of drug counselors and other recovering addicts, that I
needed to go back to find out what happened to the little girl in me, a long time
ago. Because somewhere along the line, she had gotten wounded. I learned to
reparent myself and give that little girl what she needed and didn't get as a child.
In the process, I fell in love....... with me!
Once I started loving me, I knew that I would never hurt me again by ever taking
another drug or another drink. And I knew that I wouldn't let anyone else hurt me
anymore either. There was a time when I used to say "I'm not hurting anyone but me."
And now I wonder why I felt it was OK to hurt me. My thinking was so screwed up.
Another thing that happened was that I grew up. I was no longer an adult-child
reacting to the world around me as a child would. I became my “authentic self”.
The person I would have become had I never started taking drugs or drinking. I'm
happy today and I have found a new freedom and inner contentment that I thought I
could find in drugs.
I knew that I could help other women - because as addicts, we all feel the same way,
lonely, isolated, hopeless, and unworthy. All we wanted was to be happy and be loved.
And when we were introduced to drugs and alcohol, we thought we had found what we needed,
but it didn't take long before we could see that drugs and alcohol just made it all worse.
Tomorrow's Woman offers any woman ready to change and get serious about her recovery
a chance to have a real life. If you want what I have, all you have to do, is do what
I did. It's all here for you and I'll help you every step of the way.
Evelyn Boswell
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